end of the year and i have nothing much to say. at first glance i feel what can i say? its been a heavy, empty year, without much change.
but then... i read the last post of 2012.
hmm... no change? i wonder how i even thought that. i marvel at how different this year has been. the family fights - so few this year and when we fought it was about the present and how to make the future better. not about the past - we were done with most of that in 2012. yep, forward movement i think - what an amazing change.
and this year i doubt if i had many days when i felt like a vapour and wondered if i existed in body. body pain - back pain - had been the mainstay of the year and after july i cannot remember a day without pain. hmm... very much felt and experienced and was in my body this entire year.
i began acupuncture two weeks ago. acupuncture apparently kick starts the body's natural healing. hoping and praying.
and this year my sensei left and the dojo passed on to us. from hierarchal learning we passed on to collective learning and it seems to be working.
hmmm... a very practical year with many things to deal with. too many. things gone wrong or just things. not that much time to dream, to stare to walk aimlessly.
i didn't really like the year and am glad to see its tail finally.
but we adopted a cat in november. rescued by a friend - a little white cat found abandoned by her in october. the biggest and most positive change of the year. he's brought us together as a family more and more. shibi thinks he is auggie, our doggie, come back.
well - lots to reflect on now.
hope you have your wish lists for the year ready for the year. i do :)
what do i want for my body?
my heart? what kind of friends and relationships?
my spirit and soul?
what do i wish to accomplish in the outer world and in my inner world?
what growth internally and successes externally do i hope for?
happy 2014 to everyone.
but then... i read the last post of 2012.
hmm... no change? i wonder how i even thought that. i marvel at how different this year has been. the family fights - so few this year and when we fought it was about the present and how to make the future better. not about the past - we were done with most of that in 2012. yep, forward movement i think - what an amazing change.
and this year i doubt if i had many days when i felt like a vapour and wondered if i existed in body. body pain - back pain - had been the mainstay of the year and after july i cannot remember a day without pain. hmm... very much felt and experienced and was in my body this entire year.
i began acupuncture two weeks ago. acupuncture apparently kick starts the body's natural healing. hoping and praying.
and this year my sensei left and the dojo passed on to us. from hierarchal learning we passed on to collective learning and it seems to be working.
hmmm... a very practical year with many things to deal with. too many. things gone wrong or just things. not that much time to dream, to stare to walk aimlessly.
i didn't really like the year and am glad to see its tail finally.
but we adopted a cat in november. rescued by a friend - a little white cat found abandoned by her in october. the biggest and most positive change of the year. he's brought us together as a family more and more. shibi thinks he is auggie, our doggie, come back.
well - lots to reflect on now.
hope you have your wish lists for the year ready for the year. i do :)
what do i want for my body?
my heart? what kind of friends and relationships?
my spirit and soul?
what do i wish to accomplish in the outer world and in my inner world?
what growth internally and successes externally do i hope for?
happy 2014 to everyone.
